Week 17

Write about the craziest thing that you have done in your life. 

Oh my goodness... This requires no thought whatsoever. By far the craziest thing I ever did was to tell Jeremy I'd move across the country with him so we could keep dating. I had just moved to Utah and we'd only been dating maybe a month or so. He wanted to move home to Tennessee to be closer to his aging parents and because schooling in state is much much cheaper than out of state tuition. I couldn't imagine my life without him and so I told him I'd go with him. He didn't answer me. So the next day I told him again. This time he responded, and we've been married eight and a half years now, so I guess the rest is history. It might have been the craziest, but it was also the best decision I've ever made, and I would do it again in a heart beat.

Week 16

What would you say is your biggest fear in life? 

Failing my children. I fear that I'll never fully heal from my childhood trauma and I'll never fully be able to move past it and be the mom I was meant to be.

Week 15

What is the last purchase that you regret? Why? 

This made me laugh. Honestly ALL my last purchases I regret because I'm super duper duper stressed out about not having enough money to make this move. I wish I hadn't spent any money this whole last semester so I'd have a few extra hundred dollars in my pocket... Oh well. We are selling off stuff, and a few things from Walmart that I still have receipts for are going back. One way or another we'll figure it out :)

Week 14

What is the best way to spend an afternoon out? Best way to spend it in? 

For me the best way to spend an afternoon out of the house is to be with my boys and some friends either at the zoo, the park, a play place...etc. Or with the boys and my husband doing the same, or doing a little thrift shopping. 

The best way to spend the afternoon in is to be done with all schoolwork and the boys behaving themselves. Either watching a movie with them or them off playing nicely while I clean up the house.

Week 13

Are you a loyal person? Can you keep a secret? 

I can keep a secret. I guess that is one thing I learned from the abuse I endured as a child, how to be a good secret keeper. Sometimes it's a good thing, sometimes it's not!

Week 12

When did you last cry? What was it over? Did it help? 

Um.. I'm pregnant and EVERYTHING makes me cry! I cry all day everyday over everything. A TV commercial, seeing a baby, sad news, TV shows, songs on the radio, roadkill... yeah...

Week 11

What are the three things that you regret not learning to do? 

Oh...easy peasy! 

1. Tap Dance! It was something I wanted to do growing up, but I was painfully shy. I could kick myself now. 

2. Play piano. I started and quit numerous times. I wish I had stuck with it. One day I'm going to learn! 

3. Knit. Or crochet. But I'm doing something about this one. I'm determined to make this baby a white blanket for his/her blessing. I'll need something to keep me busy once we get to Texas. As if have a house and yard won't be enough :)

Week 10

What is your favorite holiday? Why? How do you like to spend it?

I think my favorite holiday is Thanksgiving. For whatever reason it's the one time of year that I love getting up early and making a ton of food. I never stress out... We've hosted many times and I've always just loved every minute of it. I never feel rushed to have dinner on the table at a specific time, I just know everything will work out perfectly. The food is always amazing and the company is always lovely as well. 

And then there's football :) The perfect way to end a perfect day. This past year we started a new tradition to begin the Christmas countdown with the boys. So they get their Christmas pajama's, a new Christmas movie and some popcorn to end their day and begin the new season. Then from that point foward they get to open a Christmas book. That is our advent each year. Now I'm really looking forward to Thanksgiving this year. All of our fun traditions, and a new house and a brand new baby to be thankful for. So excited!

Week 9

If you could have one super power....what would it be?

The power to let go of all the hurt! 

Week 8

What's worse? Expectations that are too high or no expectations at all? 

Yikes...both can be equally as bad. I tend to expect to much from myself and my plans for my future only to be let down. So I would tend to lean toward too high of expectations. But not having any at all can be bad too. 

 

Week 6

What is something you have dreamed of doing? Why haven't you done it?

Travel the world! Or at least Europe. My family is all of European decent, and Jeremy's mom is from Germany. So it's always been a dream of mine to take a few weeks and just visit all the little towns and villiages in Germany, France, England, Russia...etc. 

I haven't done it yet because we've always been a student couple. It's a bit difficult to afford to travel in Europe while living on student loans. And now with two small kids it's completely out of the question. But one day when the loans are paid off and the boys are a bit older we both hope to be able to travel wherever our hearts take us. 

Oh and Jeremy wants to take me to Guam where he served his mission. That would be fun too!

Week 5

What are three things that you are thankful for TODAY?

Today I'm so grateful for my two healthy happy little boys. This past Monday a local family was involved in a head on ccollision. Their three year old little girl, Wyncie, passed away last night. As the mother of a three year-old, it's just so heart-breaking and difficult to understand. 

I'm grateful to be feeling better. After being really sick and having to miss out on fun with friends, opportunities to serve my friends, and my kickboxing class (I missed FOUR classes)...I'm feeling much better and have been back in class for two days, and hopefully can find time this week to go visit those friends! 

I'm also grateful for a wonderful husband who has always worked so incredibly hard for our family. Graduation is three months and one day away....but who's counting!? I'm grateful that after being in a student marriage for our entire marriage, that this chapter of our lives is coming to an end. It's a bit strange to think about, but super exciting. And it's a bit crazy to think that by the time graduation rolls around, we will have been married and in school for eight and a half years. It will be interesting to see what the next eight and a half years bring. I'm so ready!  

Week 4

If you could be any age for a week... what age would you be? Why?

I'd go back to being twenty for a week. Sure I'd miss my kids, but there is a lot that I would tell my younger naive self. I was young and newly married and head over heels in love. I would tell myself to never take my marriage for granted. To enjoy having a perfectly spotless house because it won't last forever. When I looked in the mirror I would enjoy what I saw instead of complaining about my weight....having two babies changes things!! I would have told myself to be a better friend, daughter, sister etc. I would tell myself to be thankful everyday for good health, you never know when that will start to fail. 

I would have told myself that the older self is so very proud of all that she accomplished at such a young age. And that even though the road ahead would be long and at times very difficult, that there would come a time when things would get easier and in the end it will all be worth the sacrifices.

Week 3

If you could have lunch with three people (dead or alive)....who would it be?

I reallllly miss my family, so I'd have to say that I'd have lunch with my three little brothers. I reconnected with the middle of the three youngers a few nights ago on Facebook, and we texted back and forth for several hours in the middle of the night. It reminded me just how much I miss having them in my life. 

There are plenty of others I'd love to have lunch with...but I can only pick three. 

Week 2

What is one thing you would most like to change about the world you live in?

Oh my gosh, without a doubt all the violence! Holy smokes, every day there are so many murders and shootings. It's sickening. It makes it hard to want to take my kids to the park, or the movies, or for goodness sakes, to send them to school! This is a horrible cruel world we live in. I wish so much that times were different. But sadly they are not. And I need to have more faith that my little family will be okay!

Week 1

Do you think you are the same person in life as you are in your head?

Hmm, this is an interesting question to start out the new year. No, I don't think so. I think that in my head I'm a monster. I often think of myself as the worlds worst mother and wife. I wonder why my friends want to be my friend when I can be so miserable to be around. But in reality I'm not a monster. I'm a good wife. I'm the mother of two young boys who more often that not drive me crazy. But I love them anyway, and I try to raise them with love. Unconditional love. I think we could all do with a little less yelling, but all I can do is try a little harder to do a little better. And my friends tend to think I'm an all-right person so I guess I'm not all that bad.

I'm also not the same person that I wish to be, and strive to be. I'm full of short comings and faults and I'm very hard on myself. I wish to be a better wife, mother, daughter, sister, and friend. Each day I try my best to start fresh but often find it difficult to let the previous days failures go.

Here is a great article on this very topic

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